Lust for LIfe

2006-12-06T17:37:00.000+08:00

I haf officially not slept for 3 days.....in total, i think ive had like bout 6 hrs of sleep spread out in the past 3 days. Apparently, I haf made the mistake of changing my concept and have wasted my time doing it. Precious hours have been thrown away doing the new research. I thought i was at my wits end and even had a feeling to give up. Never before had i ever felt like giving up. And never before have i ever shed tears in class I was just so stressed out and awfully tired. All i can say is that Group work sucks. Even my lecturer was and still not in favour of the whole collaboration idea. Sigh.....as the saying goes... 'make it work'. Being nice does not pay.

I think i will be spending my weekend sleeping.

2006-11-30T21:17:00.000+08:00

Hello ppl...I have been absolutely piled with school work...what not, with this being the ast 6 mths of school!....The stress level is getting really high and just today I received news that i have to chang my WHOLE damn concept again!...after all the research ive done..the money ive wasted on printing and sample materials and i have get new research book!....I was not in de mood for any discussions or watever...I have never showed anger or any kind of temper before and thus, I will never start. Anyway....got home immediately after presentation today and got started on my new research....hope it works out...cos i have 2 days to get my research book and sketch book done and 2 toiles by tuesday cos have to hand them all in....what a shit.(sorry...stress). Plus...to add on to my desperation...my favourite jeans tore!...right smack in de middle at the knee!..what luck!

On a lighter note...hmmmm...no there isnt. Hasni's on night shift and tmr morning he will be off to KL with his collegues till Sunday...and he has given me permission to use his car till then...but got catch one..have to run some errands for him... :(

Ok i think got lighter note.....hasni bought for him and myself a pair of rollerblades each!...Then last MOnday we went rollerblading at east coast...yes it was raining...drizzling a bit but it sure didnt dampened our spirits!....We were too excited to try the new blades that at the end of the day, both of our legs were like jelly and he still had to send me home and drive himself to bukit panjang...kesian...

oklah..actually got many more things to say...but my brother is hovering irritatingly behind me cos he wants to use the computer...cant wait for him to go NS ..kekekkee..i know im mean.

2006-11-07T13:04:00.000+08:00

Selamat Hari Rayaaaa!!!!.......

It has been an extremely crazee month. Haven been getting much sleep. But my baby is way tired than i am..poor thing. Catching up with his sleep now from his night shift. I haven been able to really feel like its the festive month this year, probably becos of the lack of time and also lack of going out for visiting. My family only have the weekends to spare and this year we could make time to visit immediate families. I myself have not even gone out with my frens. We planned to go out this saturday though.

Last Sunday.......was the school's fashion show...If you guys weren't there, here's a pic of the model in the outfit i made. There were 12 outfits featured from my school, all under the same theme which was 'A Touch of Baroque', We used the draping method to achieve the collection and the prints you see on the garment were made by us too! Pardon the model in the background. Models were changing everywhere....fashion show wat.

Yesterday, 4PM had their annual Bestari Award and this year we held it at ITE Simei. The event was executed marvelously and what a great relief! No more worrying about it anymore! If it wasnt so leceh to get license and all that, I would have gotten inddor fireworks! But the confetti were great replacements. Congrats Ryna!...I knew that I had the right person when I handed over the position of chairperson to you!...Thanks to the rest of the committee also for such a great work. And of cos to you sayang for doing such a wonderful job on the video. I WILL work on my movie maker skills and show you up one day ah. You wait ah!hehehehhe....

By the way, the green batik top I was wearing, I made in like 5 hours! Cos the theme was green and i had no green outfit to wear, and no spare money to go buy so I kaput my mom's batik skirt and cut it up to make my top!...Didnt sleep the night before just to sew it up!...Anyways, to see more pics on the fashion show just go to my multiply site.

2006-10-19T16:05:00.000+08:00

Yup...im still busy. Im done with all orders for raya, and now im left with my mom's and mine. And.....i only have less than a week left. Im not that worried though.. i've previously made one before puasa for mom and as for me, this year's raya, my family will be the host cos my grandparents are living with us at the moment, so first day not going out, don need to wear new clothes or look too nice cos i would have to help with the cooking, and serving and washing!..so not looking forward to that!

For the past couple of years, I haven had the chance to really celebrate my birthday as they constantly fall during the fasting month and besides that, my girls were not around. But this year was the first (after some time), cake cutting for me!....My baby arranged a bbq for me....i know i know...during fasting month?..it was just a simple get together with a small group of frens and we all buka together. Plus...I had my bestie there so it was so much more meaningful. Thanks again baby for all the presents...Yeah...he gave me so many things...but don need to spell out each and everyone of them lah ah...paisey.

Oklah...have so much more to say but Im actually suppose to be doing my research now...gonna go off soon to meet asryna for break fast.

Oh by the way....SFW (Singapore Fashion Week) is coming in 2 weeks time.. on the 5th of November at Raffles Shopping Centre, the School Connexions will be on and my school is taking part...my outfit will be up for the fashion show dat day...so...come on down y'all!....the show starts at 7pm..till then....au revoir!

2006-10-13T15:21:00.000+08:00

Wats been happening and going on?...Alot...been really busy lately...Syawal is coming but Im not really excited...kinda sad that Ramadhan will be over..

Oh ya...recently I had break fast at this restauraunt called Resto Surabaya at Lucky Plaza. Went there to try out the so called really nice Nasi Ayam Penyet.ok..its authentic but i still prefer Changi's version. If i hadn't ordered the oxtail soup, the meal would've been really dry..the sambal also not much.

Anyhoos...not really in the mood to blog...so till next time.

2006-09-19T20:16:00.000+08:00

You guys have no idea how many times i've logged in to blogger.com, clicked on 'new post' and when the page appears, I just stare blankly into the screen for a few minutes and then log off again. Not that I have nothing to post, theres sooo many things going on simultaneously in this head of mine that I do not know where i should begin! And i do not like it when i hesitate so i just choose not to post anything.

Some updates.....as u should know my bestie is back. Have been out with her almost every other day. Tennis yesterday was tiring. They really made me run...ganged up on me somemore. My semester has officially ended. Thus holiday. Supposedly lah...but of cos i gotta go back to school and yada-yada-yada. My majoy project is coming up reeeaaall soon. The crunch is gonna start. 7 outfits in 4 months. Dats 16 weeks. Dats 112 days. Which means i gotta like do 2 outfits in 1 month at least!...Fashion Week is coming up. Insyaallah, my work will be going up for the School Conexxions fashion show. Wheee!!!

I cant believe that the fasting month is just around the corner. I am so grateful for it. Couldnt have come at a better time. I have so many things to be thankful and grateful for. My grandfather is really sick with high-blood pressure and diabetes at its highest stage. Been staying with my family now for a couple of months. From what i can say, he's really happy staying here cos we make sure hes always doing fun things like going fishing, walks at the beach, etc...then a couple of weeks back it got really bad and he was hospitalised. Just when we thought that things might be better when he was brought back home, today, we had to call the ambulance and hes hospitalised again. I pray he'll get better soon and guys, help me pray for his health too ya! Its really so painful to see him like dat.

well....on a much lighter note, my Mr.Policeman can finally go back hooommee!!....The IMF meetings has kept him away from me for far too long. And Im so excited for him cos last Saturday he finally picked up his car!...Wheeeee!!!.....cant wait to meet him tomorrow...got lotsa shopping to do...not me. he does. Shop for his house. So its like a sneak peak into wat its gonna be like when we get our own house...insyaallah.

Oklah...from nothing to say to too many things now. Will end here!..Tara!

2006-09-01T23:49:00.000+08:00

Cant be bothered.

....My best mate is back for good from Australia!!!!!!!!!!! Yaaaaaaayyyyyy!!!. She gave me such a surprise just now with my bf being in cahoots with her. I honestly thought she was gonna be back only in october cos shes got her graduation to go thru...but she chose to do it here!...yaaayyyy...no words can describe how i feel....tmrw, tennis!yaaayyyyy!!!......

2006-08-29T02:27:00.000+08:00

Most of the time when I read my other girlfriend's blogs, their tagboards would be filled by what you can call 'nuisance' taggers. They would do nothing but try to incur tagging harrasment by commenting on subjects concerning the owner of the blog as though they know them. Trying to share what they call "knowledge" when they don't really know indepth of what they are giving their opinion about. And my oh my, to my "surprise", I also kena lah!....Did these people form an organisation or something to purposely go and read ppls blog and scrutinise everything they are and wat they do n when they find something, go in as a team to tag the person with useless comments?....To these people...before you leave your comment anywhere else in this blogging world, pls take a moment to "THINK"...which means, using your brains, yes, that part of your anatomy which sits in your skull in your heads, that whatever this person, whose blog you are reading, does, makes their decision upon which have already been thought about themselves and they know wat is right n wrong and its their prerogative to be doing wat ever it is that they are doing. So..........................just leave them alone.......keep your shallow knowledge to yourselves and do more reasearch first k!.....No one is doing drugs, having premarital sex and drinking. If they are, ahhhhhh...then can say something...dat one also just give advice...kalau nak mencetuskan kemarahan orang lain, itu lagi di laknat Allah swt. Give it a thought. Don tag. Just keep it to yourselves...stay calm..if u wanna say something, create your OWN blog and write it there. The other bloggers n myself don wanna know.

2006-08-22T18:43:00.000+08:00

Sunday..woke up at 9am..watched Monster House on the pc..go bathe,got ready n went to arab street with my dad for awhile to get more stuff for my project. Got home..did my work till the next day where i officially stopped work at 6am. I did not sleep and wake up cos if i took a short nap..i will end up sleeping all the way. At 6am...did my prayers..tot i should sleep then..but while i was trying to, my mind was still thinking on how i could improve on my work. Got up again, switched on the lights and did more work till 7.30am. Slept till 8.30am..got up, bathed, went to skool. Submission deadline 11am. After critique session, went to Ubi car megamart to meet the boys...someones gettin a car sooooon..wheee!...late lunch at Hjh.Maimunah...short stop at Alexandra Hospital..then picked up Bai at her workplace...picked up little Ikram at the babysitters place then headed to courts Bukit Timah wher the couple purchased some stuffs and then we bought some food back to their place and i had a quick dinner and took a cab home...all that by 11pm. My eyes almost popped out of my head by then...super tired. Doesn't help that everyday my lessons begin at 9am and ends at 6pm...on my feet all day...aarrgghhh.....i need sleep!...This month i have 4 dresses and 1 tailored pants and jacket....good luck adlin!

2006-08-18T01:29:00.000+08:00

Here i am blogging again...i dunno wat to do. Im sooo tired and in need of sleep...but im so afraid to sleep cos then its gonna be morning and i will have to go to school and hand in my scraps of fabric which is suppose to equate to a dress. I just feel so helpless at this point. God give me strength

2006-08-18T01:09:00.000+08:00

My latest design is not doing well...the fabric is making me want to vomit...it screwed up my embroidery n now i dunno how im suppose to finish it and hand it up tomorrow. I want to cry....im so screwed...gonna fail this module for sure. Shit man. Trying to stay calm...got no one to turn to at this point. Talking to him wont help cos he thinks its jus skool work. Not real work. His problems more important so ive never talked bout my problems with skool. Its too menial for him to listen to. Nevermind him....now wat am i suppose to hand in tomorrow!...im super stressed..but thinking bout it wont solve anything and trying to make the garment work wont do either cos its totally hopeless...unless paige gives me extra time to do...but dat would mean having to fork out another 50 bucks on fabric. and i dont have 50 bucks....sigh....im dead.

2006-08-10T21:03:00.000+08:00

Say no more....i single-handledly slaughtered myself on national televsion. Tema dan topik perbualan agak susah...so...it was difficult for me. Plus...im not so into singapore thus...most of my comments were kept to its minimum cos i mostly have criticisms. Aarrggghhhh....now i go out i wear burka. My sayang would like dat anyway..ok adlin get over yourself...well...this is my blog anyway...so ive got the right to talk about myself incessantly. Nevermind...at least i looked good. hehehehe....give myself some morale boost. ..im still in skool by the way...n its now 9.15pm...been in skool for 12 hrs already. Gotta head bacckkk...!!!

2006-08-05T18:32:00.000+08:00

I told myself that night, if Jonathan or Hady got voted out, Singapore Idol is not worth watching anymore. If the final 2 is not Hady or Jonathan, Singapore Idol is worth watching anymore.
I have to majorly brush up on my Malay language in 2 days. Cos i have an interview for the Akhir Kata show. Eerrkk...if u guys see me on de show then i speak english all the time or it sounds like my malay not good..well...let me say this first. Unfortunately and not proudly i admit that my malay koyak. Im gonna be such a torn in the midst of the rest of them who are able to speak proper malay. How i envy them. Dont laugh at me and pls don send me wierd msgs about my language k. Its painful enough to realise it and have to sit thru it. I will try my best and do my homework. Insyaallah...hehehehe...
I cant wait for Shiqin to come back to Singapore. I pray she comes back for good. Sampai termimpi-mimpi. Thats how much i love her. If she was a guy i'd marry her already...sorry sayang..hehehhe
Im excited about tomorrow's Berita Harian Topper Cup Match. The 4PM boys will be competing. The other girlfrens and myself will be there to support them...but the malas part is having to wake up damn early...gotta be at harbour front by 7.15am. Waliao...
I hate going to lectures. I don have much of them but when i do, i hate it. Know why?....cos these students about 80% of them dunno how to respect people. They will start chitter-chattering and then it will get louder and louder and they seem just so oblivious to the fact that there is a lecturer infront of them talking. Nonsense sia these people. Cannot wait for break to talk issit. Eventhough its boring just shut the hell up then!...sleep or something. Dont be a nuisance. You think when u whisper people still cannot hear ah. No manners at all. Sigh...just venting some anger cos jus now i had lecture and the above mentioned happened. Damn irritating!

Oklah...jus some random entries...some of what thats going on in this mind of mine. Later! Adios!

2006-07-16T11:05:00.000+08:00

Wow!....it has been 4yrs and he and i am still going strong. Stronger than we ever did before. Working towards the future now and praying that our future was written for each other. It is no longer important for us to do anything so special for our anniverssary. Wats most important is to jus be together for the day...and be happy. So wat did we do? Eat!...movie...soft toys...and eat!...We are eating buddies!...wat to do...eat eat eat..but our bodies still remain the same. Hehehehe....

2006-07-05T20:28:00.000+08:00

I looooorrveee Coldplay...every song. I call them climax music. hehehhe...

2006-06-22T12:05:00.000+08:00

i reckon it has been like wat...almost 2 months i haven been updating?...well...right now i am actually still in brisbane. Tonight is my last night here....tomorrow i will be heading back home!....Three weeks being here felt like a long time in de beginning..but as i live my last week here, its going by like whooshh!!..so fast!...now im not looking forward to going back at all. I love it here. It has been an amazing experience....nothing like a holida at all...accept of cos when i go sight-seeing...It would have definitely been different if i was stayin in a hotel or something....but i was actually living here!...did housework...cooked..hungout..go coffeeplaces. I dunno how to describe it. As i was saying, i love it here....this would be the place i would wanna migrate to...great place to bring up children. The only thing i miss back home are my family, frens, hasni, 4PM, cheap food...food and well...i think dats it. Sorry singapore....Oh and the shopping here is madness...plus theres like a gazillion things to do here all the time. Sigh....

Being here by myself has been like a journey of self-discovery. I understood things better...got new perspective...and i believe that i am a much stronger person now..emotionally. My head was a complete mess before cos i didnt have my gfs ard..but it was 3 weeks well spent. I would be back here in a heartbeat if i have the money that is.

Aaarrggghhhh.....i have to get back to reality when get home!..the pace of life here is wonderful..the weather..the people..the everything lah!....I am sure to get a culture shock when i reach Singapore. And since its winter here...the lowest was like 4 degrees...i am sure i will be perspiring like hell later....so not looking forward to the weather....well....check out my multiply if u wanna see some pics. here are a few...

2006-05-09T20:23:00.000+08:00

I'M so excited!.....finally....i'm goin to brisbane!!!!!!!..wheeeee....but im so sad i have to leave my baby behind for 3 weeks!...thank god for world cup...he wont miss me so much then...yaaayyyy.....but im kinda afraid tho..cos this would be my first time takin a plane...by myself somemore!...i jus hope the girls don forget to pick me up at de airport!...

i'm super duper excited!...yaaayyyyyyy!!!!!!!!!!

2006-04-22T00:09:00.000+08:00

FINALLYYY!!!!.....my SIP is overrrrr!!!..yaaaayyyyy....not dat i didn't enjoy it....its wat i call a love-hate feeling.

Anyway, my last day was still full of work...but we managed to order ARNOLDS chicken and eat lunch together and took some pics for memories. She gave me some stuff which to me are very valuable in my line of work...Books of fabric samples!....difficult to get!...hahaha....anyway..today was a packed day...went to work...got off at 4 then headed to school for a debriefing then rushed to 4PM for 2 meetings...actually the last meeting i kaypo-kaypo only cos i was waiting for hasni. hehehe...it ended only at 10.45pm. dat was a reeeaally loong one.

Tomorrow will be another long day....watching the 4PM boys play soccer at Marina Bay in de morning..then off to squeeze in a movie with my baby then to 4PM again to celebrate Kak Saadah's surprise birthday party. I can write this in here cos she don read my blog...so i'm safe. I think. hehehe...

MOnday got no skool but still have to go to do add/drop..then off to Wayan for my massage...can't wait for dat. The only monday i'm lookin forward to. I reckon my school days are gonna be really busy...the timetable i got was a killer!..21 weeks of skool. Lookin forward to it actually cos the subjects i have are really gd. and i'm taking music appreciation. so i'm quite happy.

Lets hope this feeling stays for sometime....i need it to get me going.
From left...my boss...me...sarah (neighbour)..Mrs Lim my boss's mom.

2006-04-11T09:24:00.000+08:00

It was a tiring weekend....tiring sunday night actually. Met Hasni and the boys for dinner at Mak's Place while waiting for my dad to call so i can pick him up when he reaches Singapore after 2 days of fishing in Pahang. He was suppose to reach Singapore bout 10pm but as he was gonna be late, i hung out with them at Chijmes watching 2 soccer matches!...No i didn;t sit down at some pub or wat...there was this restaurant that had 2 huge screens and so we jus stood watching from the top. Thank goodness the matches were good. But as we were standing up, on MOnday my legs cramped like mad!...Picked my dad up only at 1am. And now, today is my mommy's birthday!...We are celebratin her birthday, along with maulud and cukur rambut for my beloved nephew Ramzi Amani..But i couldn't take leave...now at work..I wanna try askin for half day cos i haven even bought my mom's gift yet.

On a brighter note, i have about 1 more week to go before my internship ends!.. Yeeeaahahhh!!..I feel like a slave sometimes...i dunno wat i wanna write in my log book under 'wat i have learnt today'...can i jus write 'same 'ol same 'ol..nothin much learnt today'?....I seriously hope she gives me good grades...i worked my ass off! Sometimes i'm doing labour work!...the things are soo heavy!..my body is aching and so i've booked an appointment to go for a massage. Convinced Tessalyn to have one too...I need/must go back to school the next week feeling rejuvenated...

I hate this guy called Effirudin. Cos this saturday he's flyin off to brisbane to spend 3 long weeks with my Shiqin!...I hate you!...I'm counting down the weeks till its MY turn. But for now I hate you!....

2006-03-18T14:09:00.000+08:00

The reason why i Love japanese men....hehehe...takenouchi yutaka!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-03-14T21:55:00.000+08:00

Have I stressed out enough yet that i simply hate the lipstick color the makeup artist made me use!.....i so don wear bright pink on my face!.....sigh....

anyways...jus my 2 cents worth.....i simply can't help but comment on the contestants for Miss Singapore Universe....I know you people out there share the sentiments as I do....yes..brains DO count but BEAUTY!....Wheres the BEAUTY???.....Where have all the REAL beautiful Singaporeans gone to?....I am so absolutely sure that there are better looking girls out there with brains of course....c'mon girls....you wanna let these contestants represent us??....I'm not sayin they are ugly...(well some are...with yellow teeth to boot)...but I feel so paisey you know...The judges must've been blind...jus came back from eye operation i guess....I cannot tahan....The girls from China...Taiwan..HongKong...Phillipines...Thailand...have all surpassed ours every year..time anf time again...Eventhough having good grey matter in your brains are essential...we have to realise that it is still considered first and foremost a BEAUTY PAGEANT where BEAUTIES with brains are portrayed. They jus have to be gorgeous!...NO other way around it!....The faces are one thing....the bodies!...another...only 2 of them i can say are still ok...the rest!...sigh...every year i hope that one day the real singapore beauties will come forward to proudly represent out nation. The only real beauties i could say of the Prelude show jus now were the hosts May and Choy...they stole the limelight.....again....jus my 2 cents worth...i badly needed to get it off my chest.....and once again i stress...i hate that lip color!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-03-14T00:34:00.000+08:00

April's Cleo issue...hehehe

2006-03-12T12:08:00.000+08:00

2 weeks have whizzed by pretty fast....6 more to go....

i am without a doubt goinf to Brissy this june....everything should be goinf as planned...i think i should get my tickets soon cos i'm afraid it'll be fully booked if i'm too late cause the time i'm going would be during the school holidays.

I don't seem to be able to blog nowadays...not dat i don want to...i have so many things to write about but i jus feel so lazy to think about proper sentences. My brain is just tired. Super tired that i jus don want to think. I know how my baby feels now...when he's tired and all don try to have an important conversation with him...i'll just end up getting irritated...we'll fight and the day would turn sour. My bad. Heehee... My brain jus refuse to function on my first few days of internship that when my dad asked me to tell him ALL about my day and work i jus said
" Really sorry dad but i really don wanna talk cause i can't think"...

As much as i like the job....i don think i want to be a drafter....for now thats wat i'm doing...almost everyday i'm hit with bad migraines...now my boss wants me to draft the NDP costumes that she wants to tender...i was like WAT!....the costumes are so elaborate and i have not learnt most of the designs and she wants me to draft it out!....is she mad....she was like " its easy lah....jus like dat only wat.."....i jus smiled and in my head i went like " so easy you go do yourself lah"....hahahaha....

Now i'm thinking....should i immediately continue with my studies after graduating or work first?.....if i continue....i would only finish when i'm 27yrs old...and i would not have yet gotten a job...haven save....but if i don continue....would it be difficult for me to get a job?....i dunno man...i think i should prolly start looking for companies who's willing to hire a designer who's wearing a hijab. My portfolio gotta be damn good man....i think i should get my degree first...should i?....HOW!!!! i dunnooooo......HEEEELLLPPPPP!!!!.....its goona be jus one year to go before i have to make my decision....oh god i wish i was younger...

2006-03-04T21:28:00.000+08:00

It's been 1 week since i began my internship....i'm counting down the weeks...7 more to go. I find myself vry lucky though to have gotten this job...it does have its ups and downs....but overall very lucky indeed. My boss is a one woman show. She does everything!...she's still expanding the business though. So for now its jus me and her in the office. She have one shop at the malay village but we don see the salesgirl often. My boss is chinese by the way. Why do i consider myself lucky?..well..for one thing, she's shares alot with me and don see the need to keep some work stuff confidential...she wants me to learn the business. She trusts me..hence i have the keys to the office...cos she's always late so i come in first...she gives me authority...she let me interview job applicants for the salesgirl position for the shop...and she seeks my opinion in some of the stuff that she does. Right now i am in the midst of altering the whole measurements of shatec uniforms...theres 10 sizes!...One thing for sure is that I am glad i paid attention during skool cos everything i learnt i am practicing it at work!....i can't say much for my other frens...thats why i feel very lucky. My boss is great!heheheh....

anyway...the downside of it is the location....the journey to work sucks...the journey back worst if my dad don pick me up. Theres only one malay foodstall at the coffeeshop downstairs and they sell the same thing everyday...not much variety somemore...but its oklah ah...jus another 7 more weeks to go....no holidays for me...as soon as 7 weeks is up..skool will begin..i will start on my 3rd year...i can't wait for june to come though...cos i'm planning my trip to brisbane...a whole 2 weeks!...i need to escape. join my frens and leave stress behind....thus all my internship money won't be used but saved for the plane ticket..if i cover that, my dad would have more money to give me for shopping!..hehehe...

On a happy note....a few more hours to go before my baby turns 24!..yaayyyyy.....i have a huge surprise for him tomorrow....i hope he won't have figured it out though...will update more on that with pictures galore....till then....!

2006-02-20T15:14:00.001+08:00

Its 3:19pm...monday...been in skool since 12:45pm..met Tess for lunch..no classes today...jus a final internship briefing at 4.30pm...

Its de beginning of my 1 week break before work begins....soooo lazyyyyyyyy...

Anyway...had a relaxing sunday. Went to sentosa with the boys...was not that hot by the time we got there...i jus layed down on the hammock while the boys swam...hasni too preoccupied with playing CM on the handphone to join them. Sooo many dogs on the beach...they're soo funny...one of them kept coming to our mats..another kept peeing on every tree..but the really cute ones were the ones learning how to swim...they were practically wearing lifejackets (for dogs of cos)..how cute right!...then the boys befriended with some foreigners and they left me for almost an hour playing beach soccer..i was fine though...had SIMS to play. overall it was a jolly good weekend....i'm sure this week's gonna pass by very quickly...good thing i have to report to work at 11pm on monday.

Okieesss...gonna go get ice-cream now...later!

2006-02-20T15:14:00.000+08:00

2006-02-17T11:42:00.000+08:00

Today is my last day of schooooool!!!WHEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!

But alas....my internship begins in a weeks time...

anywayss...i'm so proud of my last creation.. designed and sewed it up myself...my lecturer loves it...lotsa hard work...but super sexxyy...hehehe...

2006-02-04T21:54:00.000+08:00

My 2 girls have left for Brisbane once again....they're now probably trying to get some sleep in the plane...sigh....its been crazy....i put on weight when they came back cos we keep on going out to eat!...i was always hungry....heheheh....anyways...been spending the whole with shiqin...celebrated faezah's birthday....got high on peterpan songs...drove around singapore..played tennis...barbeque...so many things lah. I'm gonna miss them sooo much...sigh...

On a brighter note...thanks to my brother-in-law's sister, i'm gonna be featured in an article in April's issue of CLEO magazine..hehehe...hope the pic turns out ok...they made me smile soo big my mouth was hurting!...the photoshoot was fun though.

mendaki graduate's tea

2006-01-15T16:58:00.000+08:00

Had a great week...School's alright...not so crazy anymore...my attatchment interview was a success...Got to hang out more with my girlfriend...Swensens..Durians..ponggol beach. And another day at Holland Village...Weather hasn't been kind...only letting the sun show its face at the end of the week....I knda like it though when its raining...always cooling...but of cos i miss the sun..but now its like so hot!...can never be satisfied with the weather it seems.

Anyways...Friday was great!..met shiqin and effi after skool for late lunch at parkway parade..walked around abit...then effi dropped us off at east coast..met feroze and faezah there..hung out at mcdonalds till 8 then we drove to pahang street..new hang out place...Al-Sheikh...wonderful ambience...good food...cosy..and of cos great service...faezah and feroze left and the the boys came...effi, epen and hasni...sat there till bout 12 then we headed to marina south to bowl!...its was hilarious...too bad didn't have pictures of us bowling...

Saturday went to skool for abit to hand in an assignment then met hasni for lunch and a movie..DERAILED...the storyline was unpredictable...that was good...We then headed to pasir ris park for the 4PM's barbecue...We thought that if we arrived late the game would already have begun so we wouldn't have to play...but at last!...I think they purposely waited for us to arrive...I was so not dressed to run and sweat!..despite that i was not a spoilsport lah...teamed up with hasni of cos...we consider ourselves the power couple..kekeke....the game was amazing race somemore...right in our avenue..fortunately for us, i knew pasir ris park pretty well...and that the first pit stop was for us to rollerblade to the next pit stop.It seems that we were the only couple who knew how to blade!...hehehe...advantage point....we were the first at every pit stop...and of cos we won!...

Sigh....tomorrow the week is gonna start all over again...Temasek POly's open house will be from the 19th to 21st....there will be a fashion show and i'm still not sure if my work is gonna be up for the fashion show...cross my fingers!

We won! Faezah's cute new cut
Perfect Al-Sheikh

2006-01-01T14:19:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!...2006..had an excellent start to the year...spent it with my good frens...it was excellent!....My 1 week break is coming to an end...I spent the break mostly knitting(for my assignment!) and hanging out with my girlfrens...too many things to tell...will post up some pics soon...

2005 was bitter sweet....lotsa stuff good and bad happened...alhamdulillah my love ones are still around to begin another year with me...I'm embracing the start of a new year... pray that things will always get better when you're older....can't wait for March...my niece/nephew will be born!Hurray!....I'll be startin my internship end of February....sigh....so many things...I have slightly more than a year before i get my diploma...so fast already!...I pray to become a better Muslim, a wonderful daughter, always encouraging sister, good fren and good girlfren....ahaks...

Happy New Year agaaaaaaaaiiiiiiiiinnnnnnnnnnnnnnn!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2005-12-23T22:53:00.000+08:00

It has been 2 craaazeeee weeks of school....i shall not talk about it cos i don wish to think about it...even then....the past weeks have been great....faezah came back....then last week shiqin came back....and finally yesterday Baby came back!..yaaaaayyyyyyyyyyy...i have my girls back with me again!....next week is my term break but i still have make-up class to go to...sigh....

haven been updating much...malas...dunno why. my life not dat interesting wat.heheh...anyways..i'm so super duper happy my girls are baaacckkkk!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yaaaaaaayyyyyyyyyyyyy...MERRY CHRISTMAS AND A HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL!

2005-12-09T14:42:00.000+08:00

Today's Friday...the week whizz by quite fast eh..maybe cos i feel like i've got so much to do...actually i do have lots to do...the weekend's gonna be tiring...tomorrow i've got fabric class till 3pm...then gonna have to finish up my illustrations....sigh...If only i can jus sleep and wake up when i'm gonna get my diploma...hahaha...

Haven been up to much lately...school and home...faezah = starbucks = dvd marathons...my baby...will only be meetin him this sunday for our fren's wedding...missing you loads!...Shiqin...dunno when she'll be back...money...don have...i need a freakin job!....anyone got lobang?..somethin dat won't take up too much of my time cos i have limited time...if only there's 32 hrs in a day...can get more things done...

blabber blabber blabber....i asked hasni if he could, what kind of gf/wife would he want to find...he said " Bisu ( cos i banyak cakap)...dengar kata (cos i degil )...lawa giler (dah memang.hehehehe)...and giler(errmmmm)"....then i said " Like dat i don have to worry lah"..hahahahah....hmmmm.....maybe dat kind of person do exist eh.

2005-12-03T11:47:00.000+08:00

This has been one craazeee week for me and i'm so so glad its over...for now at least. Was suppose to go to skool today..but heard dat the sewing room was closed so i can't get my mannequin. No mannequin = no work....so might be goin over to Fae's place and watch a dvd or somethin...

On a brighter note...I finally watched Harry Potter!..yaaayyyyy!!!....It was amazing....just like in de book..the visualisation of the director was to a T!...

Harry's growing up to be so good looking now eh...

2005-11-25T12:42:00.000+08:00

My Baby's goooone!!!...He left for Genting this morning and i feel like its so sudden!....well....actually he already told me a month ago..then few weeks later..then a few days before...but ~~wats new~~ i forgot!...but i've activated his auto roam and he can call me..yaayyy!!...he'll be back on Sunday night. I'm anticipating Wednesday cos we'll be able to go and watch HarryPotter then!~~FINALLY!!~~

This week has been pretty wet eh..and cold...but yesterday was so super HOT!..but fortunately for me i don sweat..easily.I wanna go to skool also super malas...procrastinating on my assignments already..and i must make sure i get back on track by Sunday..or else jialat for the next 13 weeks.

So on wednesday i went to Spotlight at Plaza Sing...needed to get some jersey and satin fabrics...so i chanced upon a trimming dat would suit my Robin Hood meets hiphop theme...thus my theme is "Robin In Da Hood"....it cost bout $17.50 per meter and i was contemplatin on whether i should get it but didn't cos it was not on my budget...even the satin was like $17....~~smart~~ lucky me...yesterday faezah n i went to Arab street...i found the similar trimming and was so shocked of the price that the guy said i turned pale!....it was jus $1.50 per meter!!!...i was like "Are you sure uncle?...It's That one you know!"..hahaha..and the satin fabric i got it for 4 bucks per meter!....oklah...somethings can't be found elsewhere...but for everything else...there's ~~mastercard~~ Arab street...hehehe...

I's freaking Friday....i'm in skool now...had class at 9 till 12...i have 3 freakin hours of break till 3 where i will then ~~drag myself~~ walk happily to my next class...Typography...arrgghhh....

2005-11-20T18:29:00.000+08:00

Arrgghhh....so much work to do!...my assignments are blowing a huge hole in my dad's pockets....i'm 22 and i still get my money from him...i really wish i don haf to..but he doesn't want me to get a job...yet....sigh...

anyways...on a brighter note....yesterday hasni n me finally jalan raya with his frens...3 cars..16 people..2 babies. 10.30 am to 1am. Actually it was much later but he decided to send me home first cos i was practically falling asleep...pics are up on my multiply site!

i like things the way they are now...its so much better..going really well...we've grown..i like the new arrangement...its still new...can't wait to see the the full affect...

2005-11-14T21:28:00.000+08:00

Jus a short update....

Last week i wrote a really long entry..updated about everything...got pictures somemore....skali my ~~itchy~~ nice fingers go and press the BACK button....then i really lazy to start all over again....so..anyway..jus to update abit on the ongoings of my ~~dull~~ exciting life....today is Monday...already into the 2nd week of my 15weeks of skewl...everythin goin fine so far...so far.

This year raya doesn't seem too exciting for the family and it seems for everyone else too...i dunno...now i prefer ramadhan than syawal....last Saturday went visiting with the 4pM dudes and dudettes...this week Hasni's frens and on sunday with the 2nd batch of 4pm people....

I've updated my multiply pages..so you guys jus click that and you may view the pictures i've uploaded...

oklah...when i'm free ~~yeah right~~ i'll update propery okies!....tara!

Top left...first day of skool....with hasni at Project GEMS investiture...and bottom left me in my tedious creation with my brother..younger ah.

2005-11-03T21:16:00.000+08:00

Finally!..i'm blogging again....been awhile eh...have been super duper busy..ain't got time for nothing else accept sewing..went out shopping for stuff only like twice during the whole fastin month!....this yr raya at my house very plain...nothin much is new..my langsir bilik also i jus got without it...leceh ah...anyways i don mind cos my grill very nice..heheh...buat simpan habuk ajerr..this ramadhan left me 5kg lighter (i know..how much thinner can i get right)...sendi-sendi suma sakit...ngantok tak habis...mata macam panda...and i've not even begun with skool yet!...and that's next monday!...sigh...this yr for the first time i tak pegang kuih pon...help abiit only...my sister came over to bake them instead...talkin bout her...i really empathise with her...she just had a miscarriage for what could've been her third child, a day before syawal...emotions must still be running wild in her....all i can do is be there for her...it wrenches my heart jus thinkin bout wat she's going through...she was so excited about the pregnancy....i will always pray for her health and that god wills for her to have many more children....

I've not met my baby for 3 weeks!...been so busy and i didn't get to breakfast with him cos i have family responsibilities....family comes first...really missing him..can't wait for monday to have dinner with him and asryna and boy....

My cousin from Penang finally came down to Singapore today to celebrate with us...been bout 4 yrs since i last saw her..so....tomorrow...my 2 other cousins and myself will be bringing her out shopping!....all the cousins unite!...really looking forward to bond further with the gals...well...dats it for now...its 9.30pm and i'm gonna go have an early night..absolutely shagged..

2005-10-17T22:00:00.000+08:00

ROW

Ramadhan - On - Wheels 2005

Wonderful and humbling experience once again....much more appreciative and thankful for the things i have and the people i love...guys...never ever abandon your parents..no matter how hard your life is, remember that their's was too when they were struggling to bring you up..dosa yang paling besar is when you kecikkan hati mak bapak.

2005-10-03T20:08:00.000+08:00

I've been up all night, you've been puttin' up a fight.
Seems like nothin' I say gets through.
How did this old bed fit a world between me and you.
We said "Goodnight" but the silence was so thick
you could cut it with a knife.
We've hit the wall again and there's nothin' I can do.
You're the one, yea, I've put all my trust in your hands.
C'mon and look in my eyes, here I am, here I am

You don't understand me, my baby.
You don't seem to know that I need you so much.
You don't understand me, my feelings,
the reason I'm breathin', my love

The mornin' comes and you're reaching out for me
just like everything's the same
and I let myself believe things are gonna change.
When you kiss my mouth and you hold my body close,
do you wonder who's inside?
Maybe there's no way we could feel each other's pain.
Tell me why it gets harder to know where I stand.
I guess loneliness found a new friend, here I am

You don't understand me...

You don't seem to get me, my baby.
You don't really see that I live for your touch.
You don't understand me, my dreams or the things I believe in, my love.
You don't understand me. You don't understand me. Understand me.

2005-09-29T18:38:00.000+08:00

WHINING TIME!!

Yup!..its time to read my usual complains and whinings...Yesterday i jus finished my sister's mother-in-law's baju kurung...not easy mind you cos it was double work...netted and lining material and now i'm startin on Alzerin's...last night i was drawing up the paper pattern and i had to push my way through it cos my back was aching like mad..i tried to start cuttin the fabric but i stopped when i felt my muscle twitching...DADDY!..where's my table!!!!!.....i need my 6feet table badly cos i can't keep on bending down on the floor...any doctors out there??....you see...i don't drink milk...hate the stuff..as also mayonnaise, any types of cheese besides mozarella, tartar sauce, any types of dressings on salads..basically anything whitish with a creamy consistency and does not taste sweet...(one of the reasons why i'm always slim!..heheh)...im really afraid that i might have back bone problems..i wanna take in calcium but not thru milk plss....but i do drink soya bean and yogurt!...hiya!....i haf like 6 more suits to go...i haven even bought mine!...i jus need a table!...and to get rid of that huge bed!..i practically jus sleep on one side and the rest is filled with pillows!

on a brighter note...my last 2 saturdays were spent with my sweet guy, watching the starlight cinema over at the padang with his frens too...it was not bad accept that we had nothing to rest our back against. all of us were like fidgeting insects..hehehe...he's been truly busy lately...but i'm so proud of him scoring so damn well for his tests and also getting a really good grade for his work assessment..i pray that you'll get promoted next yr sayang!...this saturday maybe gonna meet him for awhile then if we get the tickets, on sunday night we can watch the 4PM boys perform dikir barat for the mega warna thingy...i'll prolly be seeing him last on sunday or monday...before puasa.

yesterday i went to my sis place to help her clean her walls...yeah walls...and the cupboards in the children's room. You know...kids...the walls and cupboards all habis kena conteng...we're still not done yet so maybe i'll go down tomorrow or saturday morning....i dunno why but i feel so lethargic today...think i'm comin down with something..hopefully first night of terawih i can make it...i so look forward to ramadhan...but alas...the thought of hari raya not so appealing as a few days after..skool starts....

*stares into the abyss*

2005-09-19T17:08:00.000+08:00

I hope i won't ever have to go through the same pain again....

2005-09-19T16:55:00.000+08:00

FINALLY!

Finally....Bestari Award is over!..I had spent the whole of last week at 4PM from noon till late at night till nearly midnight...Well...first of all I won't even want to describe how the event...all i can say id that it was definitely not up to my standards. This is the third year running i chair the committee and all i can say is that though somethings did not go according to plan, I had the best people doing the job and am so proud of them. If you guys are readin this, i know i had thanked you already but its not enough!...each of one you were very special and i was very priviledged to have worked with you guys. Asryna...your name will be up first tau for me to handover next yr..hehehe.

CHeck out my multiply for more pics!

2005-09-08T01:19:00.000+08:00

Self Reflection

I've known for a long time how stubborn i can be....and i know that sometimes it'll take it's toll on the people around me. Sigh....why do i find the need to struggle so hard to be this perfect person when i know that no one in this world is.....i know i'm not perfect either but i just can't allow people to see me weak. From young i needed tbe the best at everything...to run faster than the girls...jumped further than the boys...show the boys that i'm as strong as them...at the same time be a girlie girl...any signs of imperfection and i'll just shrink....Why do i always need to be the right one?....why can't i ever admit defeat?...why do i always need to know all the answers?..why why why....hmmmm.....hasni calls me 'leceh'....i always have a contingency plan for a contingency for a plan....(if u get wat i mean)....i feel much more secure knowing that i have something to fall back on....do i take risks then?.....hmmmm.....i would.....but i would need to scrutinise every detail first and have backups!.....i never want to be late...i don like lateness...but its something i call having discipline leh...if we don't have discipline in one part of our life i believe taht it would affect everything else!...its who we are...i dunno...i was brought up that way...my dad would get very annoyed and unhappy if we are ever late or don come on the time that we say we would....but now i'm looseing up abit...learning to go easy on life...but i am who i am...i never do anything without giving it 120%. its either that or i don't do it....ya lah...i'm 'leceh'....but i'm so glad i have understanding people around me...especially him....sometimes i give myself a headache for thinking too much....it seems that i need to go for a holiday like every other week jus so i can unwind....
when one says he/she tries to change...is it changing the personality?...character?...lifestyle?....will it affect who the person is in the first place?...i mean if it is for his own benefit of cos but to what extend does someone change for someone else?....if its all about accepting the person for who they are...then why change?...why be with that someone in the first place?....
Now i'm just ranting here...just my thoughts....i'm someone you can call anal....'leceh' pon boleh....

hey!..i wanted to post my next entry in malay right?....hahahah..i jus can't seem to!...i dunno....if its melayu pasar macam kekok...if melayu melayu like too formal...dah macam nak tulis puisi pulak nanti...hmmmm...let me try a bit ya....
.....tadi aku pergi....petang tadi....macam mana eh....aaarrrgghhhh....NEVERMIND Lah eh...adlin boleh boleh..boleh blah!....hahahah...later i write in malay and it will turn out to read like a malay compo..habis!...

oklah...niari punye entry sikit nye panjang...skarang kul 1.37am...nak tido...ngantuk...(nowi sound like some budak kecik)...this is wat i mean.

2005-09-07T00:34:00.000+08:00

aarrrggghhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!i dunno how to get rid of that thing up there!..someone help!....i'm a html virgin!

2005-09-03T17:31:00.000+08:00

didn't get to meet him today afterall....but at least we met up last night. I went for the JB Cultural Extravaganza at the University Cultural Centre last night and had an amazing time getting reconnected to my malay roots. It was zapin all the way and of cos most of us were there because of Siti was there!..woohoo!...went with my 4PM buddies and hasni's gd fren effi. after the whole gig we went for supper at West Coast food centre, driven around by new found acquaintances and met hasni there.

Today the family is gonna celebrate ISRA' MI'RAJ at a mosque in old bedok road and after that i'm gonna be off with my 4pm dudes and dudettes for night cycling. we're not gonna cycle though...the scondary skool kids will and we will be there to support them and of cos run the games at the checkpoints. I' m sure it'll be fun

the holidays are here....gotta get books to read...clothes to make...ramadhan comin...sins to abolish...sigh...sins...even the best of us have them...we all jus need to make sure we rectify them and not make the same mistakes again.

oh i jus remembered....i really need to brush up on my malay..its absolutely ghastly. I was at the goh chock tong youth promise award tea session and was asked to answer some questions to the camera where it will be shown on air..and *GASP*! i have to do it in malay!....i felt so ashammed of myself that i would go and learn all these other languages when i do not embrace my on. I was practically killing myself infront of the camera. someone might as well have given me a gun and let me shoot myself!....Izzati was tellin me that the new updated kamus is out in stores and i think that should be my first purchase of books. i can speak malay lah...tapi melayu pasar..kalau disuruh bertutur dalam bahasa melayu yang lebih elok agak susah sedikit. perlu berfikir dahulu tentang apa yang mahu dikatakan. its hard...i know....but i know people who can help me!..izzati!.....help!....maybe i'll try writing my next entry in full blown malay! with a dictionary beside me of course....we'll see

2005-09-02T14:19:00.000+08:00

Sigh..last week and this week has been the utmost tiring weeks ever in my poly life! and i'm sure it won't end there. Yesterday i submitted my last 2 projects! yeaaaaaaaahhhhhhh!.....haven been sleeping much and on wednesday night, as soon as i got back from skool at 7pm i started on my history of costume project and still only 3/4 finished it at 6.30am. my dad slept...went for night work at 2.30am..got back at 6.30am and i was still doin my work!...i was bending down on my work for 12 hrs and yesterday it got the better of me. had to submit my project at 9am....go through a class till 12pm..start on a report and had to finish by 3pm...go for class..had a presentation and ended at 6pm. I was half dead in classes and it didn't help that i've been having a bad cough since saturday. But alas....all my work is done! i can't relax yet though cos i might have to go for a portfolio review where all my lecturers will be present to crtitise my work. really looking forward to my holidays!

Integration island was a success....hasni's beban is gone and now its my turn with the bestari award. we have only 3 weeks to settle evrything before the big day. am so glad that my comm members can be depended on. thanks asryna for acceptin to be my vice-chairperson.

i need a holiday badly....need to go for a full body massage...but my holidays won't be so much of a holiday though..i have a line of baju kurung waitin to be sewn..alzerin has already tempah satu. my kain haven even buy yet....was suppose to go to KL this sunday for major shopping spree but have to be cancelled cos my aunt and uncle can't go. next week i guess.

can't wait for tomorrow...meeting hasni...we've been really busy and our schedules clash sometimes..thanks to meetings at 4pm we get to meet but its ok. he's got work and studies to balance..support is very important. so i can't wait to see him tomorrow!...we'll be havin our favourite fried slice fish soup with rice.

so right now i'll jus be slackin and restin at home...cook somethin for my mom...watch tv....sleep. i though of goin to the jb cultural night thing with the 4pm guys but hasni's got class later so don want ah...stay at home watch smallville...trading spouses and extreme makeover better...i love friday nights!

P.S: shiqin...baby and fazer..missing you guys badly...come home soon!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2005-08-16T11:42:00.000+08:00

This is the most racist person i've ever come across. and he's a singaporean. check his blog out. you will be maddened. blog

2005-08-12T23:34:00.000+08:00

I'm so hooked on My Chemical Romance...Helena sounds so rad! And it helps too that the lead vocal is hot!...i know i know..i have wierd taste...i've always fantasised about marrying a rockstar..hehehe..

2005-08-06T23:47:00.000+08:00

hmmm...jus now i was watchin the bahas 4PM and the mauduk was 'a blog is your personal space' or somethin like dat. anyway..one of the penyanggah was sayin dat it is not your personal space as the maker or the blog places in ads in your blog and you can't take it away....ermm...but i don see any adverts on MY blog...or anyone else's!....if i was there i would have said 'celahan puan'!..heheheh....very interestin to watch these things..watch how they keep their composure and all.....

anyways....watchin saturday night live right now and the muppets are on. i've always wondered...to myself of cos, whenever they're on tv. like are they controlled by hand...or machine or wat?....can anyone tell me??

2005-07-30T20:57:00.000+08:00

For my Fashion Retail assignment, all of us will be setting up our own business in skool on our CCN(campus care network) day. Doesn't matter wat we're gonna sell but we have to get our own resources and come up with a business plan and blueprint and all the works. Guess wat my group will be selling??..FOOD! wat else!..We've got contacts for Ramly burger to be sold..we have drinks..cookies and freebies....but wait...wats the point of me typing in this entry?..well..i was workin on de poster designs with my visual designers(chey) and my big mouth and me decided to do a silly pose and say dat we should put this pose in the poster!...THey took my picture (for fun)...i did some funny poses...and last week they showed me the final design of the poster and my face was in it!....i was mortified!....i convinced and begged them not to put my picture in and in the end they only settled after i agreed to wear a CROWN on dat day!....sigh...wat have i gotten myself into..when my lecturer came over..they showed the poster and she said that my picture should be in!...waaaahhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!its gonna be pasted all over skool!...wanna see wat it'll look like?

lets jus hope that no one will start puttin in a moustache or wat.

2005-07-30T20:49:00.000+08:00

I was invited to Style magazine's latest beach party and i totally fell in love with this new shoes! They're perfect for the beach or anywhere else and they are just absolutely so comfortable. Only weighs 6 ounces!...this is by far the most excited i have been so far about a pair of shoes. Gonna getthem soon!..very soon...this pair is fuschia...i'm thinkin about gettin yellow or red...hmmm...

2005-07-22T14:40:00.000+08:00

Sigh...lotsa plans had to be cancelled it seems. I made a nearsighted decision to go to bangkok last month and now it turned to a decision i wished i hadn't made in the beginning. At first after checking and recheckin my schedule, all seems clear for me to go but then, right after i had already booked and paid for the flight, certain skool stuff were being delayed and postponed to the exact date that i would be taking off. Why?Why? It wouldn't matter if the money was mine...but it was my dad's!..i feel so sick. Wanted to pay him back but of course he wouldn't accept my money. Guess it was just not my luck. Anyways...maybe its a blessing in disguise.
Skool's much more important anyway.

Another thing....i was recently nominated for the SSYEAP trip. A youth ship thingy comprising of youths from all over the asian countries going on a month's cruise trip to all the asian countries including Japan. Went for the interview and i got selected! But alas....I'm pulling out of it as the trip would fall on the day that i begin my new skool term in november.....even so..i don actually feel disappointed though. I would not be homesick! and won't be away from my dear...he was supportive but always gave me this 'but i will be all alone' look.heheheh....

anyways...today's friday...tomorrows saturday...but it won'e be much of a weekend for me...got lotsa work to do!..gotta clean my room first though...it looks as if a hurricane passed through! No kidding! Sometimes its such a mess that i myself don feel like cleaning it...then my sister would come over and i will beg her to clean it for me in return for something of course!..heheh....i bought her watch the other day!

2005-07-17T18:43:00.000+08:00

Today was a total waste of time.

2005-07-04T12:49:00.000+08:00

Skool's not so bad this week...but my migraine and toothache is still numbing my head and face. Anyway,looking forawrd to my 1 week holiday next week! Yaayyyy....and the day i can't wait...17th July...celebrating the 3rd year we've been together. It seems really fast eh?....Really found an amazing person and i'm sure he'll make a great husband and dad..insyaallah.Gonna make him somethin special. Fortunately for us, we've never been in a situation where we've grown apart...every stupid little fight we had, have only brought us closer together. And I'm glad. we're not gonna celebrate how long we've known eaach other...we're celebratin the happiness we've shared..the tears we've shed..the journey we're lookin forward to and of cos the love we have for each other. Sigh.....

2005-07-01T00:01:00.000+08:00

Your Birthdate: October 13

Being born on the 13th day of the month should help make you a better manager and organizer, but it may also give you a tendency to dominate people a bit.

You may be more responsible and self-disciplined than you realize.

Sincere and honest, you are a serious, hard working individual.

Your feeling are likely to seem somewhat repressed at times.

You are apt to be much more practical, rational, and conscious of details.

Your intolerance and insistence on complete accuracy can be irritating to some.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

2005-06-27T14:46:00.000+08:00

I'm going an another holidaaaayyyyy!!!..yaaaaaayyyyyyy!!..Bangkok here i come!!Shoes galore...i'm still in de makin to becoming the next imelda marcos...

2005-06-23T09:38:00.000+08:00

I am so tired.....slept at 5.30am this morning...finishing up my History of Costume...today submission...in skool now...submit already...so now i have a long break till my next class at 3pm. I know most of u would go home and sleep...my house is so near..but i feel so lazy to step out of the skool....cos if i'm at home, i'll feel so lazy to leave the house again!.....maybe i'll jus take a snooze in the lab. My head is throbbing. I need sleep.
Anyway..the photoshoot thingy went well last night...but have yet to receive the pics. If you guys do not know...i'm doin this thing for one of my subject, where we haf to find a real client and propose some ideas as to improve or give a service for the company. So my group mates n I got a client who owns the Tanjong Pagar Railway Food Court. So now we're makin polo-ts for all his employees...an also a promotional gig in manja magazine...he wants to say thank you to his existing customers lah. So last night, with my photographer fren...pictures of the food and all that was taken...i will be meeting up with the advertising people tomorrow morning. I feel like some big shot gitu cos i'm signing the contract and its gonna cost like 4000 bucks?...cos he wants a 2 page spread!full color!....n the thing is the advertising lady does not know that i'm still a student!...hehehe....well..i'm gonna push for this july's edition...so people..watch out for the ad and cut out the oupon and enjoy 50% off for the most talked about food there!....so exciting.

2005-06-20T13:55:00.000+08:00

Its already the 5th week of skool....and already i'm getting migraine. The headache is not receeding....infact its getting worse. Sigh...at least last week's burden has been raised...my Retail presentation was such a flop. For the first time ever, my presentation skills were murdered. I was so disgusted with myself...but alas...wats done can't be undone..i'll just do better next time round....this week's burden is my History of Costume's assignment...and My Prof.Comm. for design assignment...haf to make sure my client's advertisement comes out in the next edition of manja magazine...

I had a really great bonding time with my younger brother for the past few days whilst my parents went away for a holiday. Usually we would argue n not agree on things but when ure parents aren't around, we automatically do the tings for each other we would not usually do! I had the responsibility of making sure that my brother was safe all de time and haf his meals and blah blah blah...on yesterday, he woke up early in de morning and ordered breakfast for me...then for de first time he asked me out!....i would never imagine he would wanna hang out with his sister!..we went to ikea...then to town cos he wanna do some shopping...i was a very happy sister...we walked around...shopped together..ate together..if people didn't know, they would've thought we were a couple! YIKES! ....anyway...it was sweet of him lah..for de first time heheh..

n now..here i am..back again in skool...my head is ripping apart...i know i'm complaining and all that but really!...i cannot have to much stress...blood pressure go up..my migraine go up..but i guess i have to get use to it...cos this is the real deal in de real world...

2005-06-09T12:10:00.000+08:00

My BABY is no more....she passed away last night. Too sudden. I found her in her sleeping position but it was at such a funny period of time that when i saw her lying there i know somethin was wrong. she never greeted me when i got home. My mom jus fed her 15mins before. I still can't believe she's gone. Her body was limp and still warm when i picked her up for the last time to hug her. Buried her immediately at my dad's work place. I still can't believe she's gone. Was a part of the family....always followed me ard and run after me. Never wants to eat unless we feed her by hand. She won't sleep with me anymore. I'm gonna miss her so much. Missing her so much. No other cats can replace her cos she's got such a unique personality. Vicious to others yet loving to me. Don't think i'll be gettin another one...at least not in de near future. Baby....Baby...hope u were happy whilst with us....

2005-06-06T12:43:00.000+08:00

pourquoi ne pouvez-vous pas juste faire des excuses à moi ? Vous étiez celui qui dit ces choses moyennes à moi et à vouss'attendent à ce que JE donne dedans ? quand cette extrémité ? Je t'aime tellement pourtant vous continuez à ratisser vers le hautdu passé.

2005-05-30T13:27:00.000+08:00

Its Monday n i'm in skool..jus ended a lesson n now waiting for the my french lecture at 3pm. sigh...i'm tired..mentally. I have 2 outfits to make by friday..before friday infact and my parents are like thinking as if its such an easy job and keep tellin me to quickly finish it up. I know they're excited and all that but don they know that i have other things in my life besides sewing!! I have skool! I've been goin to skool and straightaway goin for sewing every single day plus saturday and sunday and besides sewing i have skool work! I kept tellin them but they'll jus say ok at first then continue to bombard me with endless crtisisms. I'm slowly becoming to dislike this thing i do...it was enjoyable at first but they turned it into a chore. I have to slow talk with my dad tonight. Can't take it anymore..
So many things to do and so little time....thats always the case eh.

Lets see how things go.....i jus feel like screaming!....vomitting...anything!..jus to let this whole thing come out from inside me.

2005-05-25T22:58:00.000+08:00

If you people lazy to check out the multiply page..then here is some preview of my Holiday at Pangkor Island

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2005-05-25T22:57:00.001+08:00

taken from the room

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beaituful sand

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2005-05-25T22:56:00.000+08:00

private beach

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2005-05-25T22:46:00.000+08:00

Been so lazy to update...plus the computer is unwell and all...anyway...i just began the semester yesterday...my time-table is packed and i can't wait for my first french lesson. heheh....nothin much has been happening..hope u guys checked out my multiply link for pics of my holiday and the rest of the happenings...will write again soon!

2005-04-28T12:40:00.000+08:00

YEAAAAAHHHHHH!!!!!!!!....the week is almost coming to an end and i'm happily surprised at how fast the week has whizzed by! The best thing for me is that tomorrow night, i'll be on my way to my much needed holiday! Can't wait can't wait but cannot be too ghairah nanti things may not go as planned. I'm hoping that my "time of the month" does not come this weekend or else my plans would be ruined. I would not have anything to do on that island. No shopping no nothing. I wouldn't want to attract sharks while snorkeling do i? I'm counting on luck here. Bought 2 types of sunblock yesterday...wouldn't want to spoil my skin right? and despite me wanting to frolick in the sun all day, i wuldn't want to get dark. So i'm equipting myself with all the possible means and ways to keep away from the sun as much as possible whist in the sun that is..unless i really have to expose myself to it when it comes to doin the activities. You guys catch me so far?...anyway, wanted to buy fins yesterday but hasni advised me to get a bootie instead...watsa bootie? the shoe thingie you wear to protect you from sand and corals and ones you can wear with the fins as well. Now wat else do i need?....my aunt was tellin me yesterday that just buying the preperation stuffs are expensive enough...haven even gone for the holiday!...she's right!...well..i consider these things investments!..heheh....

Hope things go well tomorrow night as we will be driving down to perak at night and hoping to reach slightly afer dawn. Will try to take as many pictures as possible!....Pangkor Island....Here I come!!!!!!!! Sayang....don worry...i will definitely miss you eventhough i'm having fun!heheh..so mean...but really i'll miss you...if only you could join us too!

2005-04-26T11:29:00.000+08:00

went to de muzika extravaganza and took some pics with the celebs!...this is vince

2005-04-26T11:28:00.000+08:00

dayang!

2005-04-26T11:27:00.000+08:00

taufiq!

2005-04-17T13:04:00.000+08:00

Whewww!!!! Kept changing destinations and now instead of Redang we goin to Pangkor Island....confirm! Been another hectic few days calling hotels and scouring the internet for the best places and finally got one. Really can't wait!.....went out with my sis yesterday and i bought the snorkeling gear. And gonna borrow her diving suit. So exciting!

2005-04-15T16:04:00.000+08:00

Aaaarrrggghhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!! Unfortunately, we made plans too late, thus all and i say ALL resorts and chalets from the most expensive to the cheap to the core are fully-booked! DRAT! why must everyone else also go Tioman? So.....we decided to go to Redang Island instead...not as great but will do for the mean time...it was almost impossible to get a place too! I almost gave up! From 7am to 12 noon I've been scouring the net for places to stay and calling each and everyone of them...I was getting fed-up! But fortunately, i managed to get one villa. Expensive but my dad say "GO". Can't wait to go snorkelling! WEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!

2005-04-15T10:25:00.000+08:00

I have to commend myself for my improved (hmmmm...wat should i call it) attitude? Character? Remember how i always said that i'm a really paranoid person and meticulous and not so relaxed? Well....after going through certain events this month, I promised someone to not be all of the above for once. It really puts a strain on the relationship with me wanting everything to be perfect and all that. I know i know nothing can be perfect. But a girl has to try!hehe..Now, whenever we meet, by not being perfect, we are perfect! When you relax, things go well. Never been happier. I cannot ask for a better companion. He's like everything you could ask for. And i'm not exagerating. Really! Even my girlfrens can vouch for me. They love hanging out with him. Basically, he treats me the way my dad treats me. If anyone knows my dad, you'll know wat kind of person he is then. I guess when it comes to the time where my dad meets him, i'm sure he will ask himself whether this guy can treat me and love me the way he does. My dad will do anything for his children. us give him a call and whether he is at work, he will drive all the way down to where you are. Wats so great about this guy? Well...most importantly he loves his family. A family guy...man of the house basically. Soft hearted, remarkably patient, loves kids...independant(can do house chores..very important). A day dreamer...but at least he works towards his dreams. K K ...before you people throw up i shall stop here. Can't help it lah...3yrs and he says it still feels like brand new.

Anyway..yesterday......i bought my first digital camera!...yaaaaaayyyy!!!!!! Its the new Canon Ixus700. Spent an hour contemplating between the Panasonic FX7 and the Ixus700. Yaaaaaaayyyyyyy!!!!!!!

My holiday is almost over and i've been bugging my parents to go on a holiday. So we decided to go to Tioman! I've been up all night for the past few days searching for the best resorts and best beaches. So today i've been up from 7am making calls to the resorts asking for availability. Unfortunately, the top 2 resorts there are fully booked. So now i'm waiting for the third one to call me back at 10:45am to tell me the good/bad news. I really really hope to go. I need a holiday badly. Very badly. If Tioman doesn't work out, i'll bug my dad to go to Langkawi instead. Pls pls pls pls pls....have a room.....pls....

2005-04-11T21:58:00.000+08:00

Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength; loving someone deeply gives you courage."

-Lao-Tzu

2005-04-10T20:58:00.000+08:00

Today was quite a tiring day....eventhough i didn't do much! Felt so lethargic at the end of the day. Woke at at 10am...watched some tv..did the house chores...layan my parents for abit then went to Pasir Ris Crest Sec to watch the 4PM boys play soccer against Hasni's chinese frens team....we won them 11-2! Yaaaayyyy!!...after that headed off to simpang bedok to have dinner....more like brunner for me...Breakfast Lunch and Dinner combined.
I can't sit at home too much...i end up feeling tired..sleep late...wake up late..do nothing much accept go for sewing classes...i need to do some heavy activities. Make myself feel more refreshed. I just end up feeling so super lazy...wanna reach out for my book also difficult. Well....I'm really lookin forward to tomorrow though. Hasni and me didn't get to go on proper dates for awhile now. Have not even touched Orchard for nearly 2mths! So tomorrow we're gonna spend the day with a movie marathon...he wanna watch like 3 movies! Yikes! Anyway...in the midst of that i have to remember to go to Funan cos i wanna look for cameras. Its either the canon ixus 700 or the canon digic slr...need to get the brochure to show my dad..but most probably will be gettin the ixus 700 cos its so tiny and a breeze to bring along anywhere!
I badly need a massage..a neck massage to be precise. Its so tense! Been carrying heavy loads on my shoulder for awhile and its takin a toll on my shoulder and arm. Maybe i can talk my mom into treatin me to a massage on the day she goes for hers..heeheheh...sure can one!

2005-04-09T22:36:00.000+08:00

Jus received my end yr results last night at bout 4am, thru the sms service i signed up for. Phew! Though my results are not even remotely great, i still passed! Yeah! The grades were of my expectations. Thank god i don't have to take any sub paper. Was afraid of that. Gonna work so hard next term. No more hurray hurray for me. I suppose it'll be much easier as both Hasni and me will be having skool. He also would have to study and concentrate hard for his studies. I'm really so proud of him continuing his studies, reaching for his goals. Am so looking forward to giving him the support he needs to get through all the stress that's gonna be building up from skool and work. Study hard sayang! Am rooting for you.

Guess wat! My skool term starts on the 24th of May! Yikes! Not in June as i expected it would be. Dampen my spirits a bit. Sigh.....anyway, my mom's birthday is like on monday, sis n me decided to get her a spa day thingamajigga for her birthday at WayanRetreat! But her schedule so tight she can only make it next Saturday...:( nonetheless...she doesn't know wat it is, n I hope it would be happy with the gift!

Well...i jus got back from JB with my parents..went to visit my grandparents. Gonna have an early night...cos i slept at 4am last night. Have been sleeping pretty late this week. Why? Guess lah....well......i watched Samara.
Hahahaha...pathetic right! Yes laugh Tess..

2005-04-09T01:54:00.000+08:00

GOING INTO DEPRESSION MODE

2005-04-06T11:09:00.000+08:00

At last! Have either been too busy or too tired to post anything last week. So, i will update on the latest since last friday.
Hmmm....lupa pulak...jap eh..recalling.Oh Ya! Nevermind lah..dah basi pun cerita tu...just day on friday i met up with Ifwah at arab street. She accompanied me to get some stuff. It was freakin hot and we couldn't find the shop and we rounded the whole entired streets there. Only found the shop at the very last moment when she needs to go off. Spent like $100! Din't know it was gonna cost dat much. Bought threads and beads and al the small stuff and they cost that much!
Anyway, Saturday was suppose to be the day spent at home cos my siser usualy comes over on saturdays. My parents were suppose to go to melaka but they didn't so i suggested that we go to IMM that afternoon! My brother was there too so all of us went. But we only managed half an hour of look-see cos we reached there at 9.00pm! My brother-in-law was late! I wanted to go IMM cos i wanted to choose a new bed for me! Gonna have my room revamped! Hahah...my room is gonna look nicer than hasni's. Didn't really come to a decision on a bed so i asked my dad to build one for me. He's more like superman. Can do everything and anything. From an electrician, carpenter, designer and the best is that he's a great cook! Does most of the cooking actually. So i'm waiting for him to show me the plans for the room. Also waiting for the various kinds of woods i can choose to make my bed. The best part of my room is gonna be the stone wall. Abit zen like. Can't wait for that.
We went home quite late that night cos we went for dinner/supper at the railway station. Got back at nearly 1am. Thing is, I have to wake up very early tomorrow cos my mom have a prize presentation ceremony at a mosque in balestier.
7am...got dressed at headed to the mosque with my parents. My mom was waiting for the results of her test. Tilawah Al-Quran. And she got FIRST! THE JUARA! so happy for her. Can see my dad smiling from his seat. So proud of my mom! But my camera spoil lah...it only went on when she got off the stage!:(
Monday, i started on my blouse. At bout 7.30pm my dad picked me up and we headed to Aloha Loyang. My brother-in-law had a chalet for his birthday. It was fun! the place had a playroom and while watching my nephew and niece, my brother and i started playing around too!...We were really like children...stopped only when my sister pointed out that there were camera's everywhere. She only spotted it when SHE too was about to get on the slide!...ahahaha... Got back really late. Woke up really late. hehehe...and yesterday!...i finished my blouse!...its so nice!...fits to a tee! so proud of it. Later on i'm startin on my mom's dress. Hope to meet hasni later. That is, if he wakes up...just got back from night shift. Kesian dia....he eats like he's got the stomach of a whale....but he's body is like a lizard. Sorry hun! But its true!...I wish he would put on a biiiiiiiiit more weight. Just a bit. But i also wish that when he grows older, (like most men, they will start to bloat)...he shall stay slim. Hehehe..dat goes the same for meee!!..My sister always say..."just wait till you get married then your body will start to change"...she's hoping that i will turn out the same as her..hahaha..i shall work hard not to.

2005-03-30T10:39:00.000+08:00

It's been 2 weeks since my nose have started to run away from me. I can't stand it! My eyes are constantly watery, i'm constantly sneezing. My eyes are so itchy i feel like scratching them out. And my nose...i feel as though the hairs in my nose aren't there anymore which is why its always so itchy inside cos got no hair to ctach the dust!. Aaaarrrgghhh! Never had this situation before. So irritating! The other time I went out with my family to go fishing, my sister kept teasing me askin me why i keep crying! When will this end!

Yesterday was a good day for me. Met up with hasni to have dinner at east coast. He was there already with his collegues in the afternoon. So i drove there and we ate at the seafood place. Should've seen the look on his face when he saw all the variety of food there. He looked like a kid lost in a toy store. Accept the place was full of food lah. Ordered so many things. Managed to finish them up lah. But anyway, we were sitting down so comfortably when hasni felt somethin up his pants. Ulat bulu!eeeeeeeee!!!! then both of us sat cross legged. The turning point that made us leave was when the people sitting next to us also had one ulat bulu dropped on her lap. We cabut immediately. Gross!What was so funny was when i was eating, hasni said there was a goat behind me."Eh kambing"..i turned andto my horror!...the kambing was a huge black dog!..just behind me. of cos it didn't do anything. But it was the least expected animal i would've wanted to see.

Anyway, i hope today my nose won't act up too much cos i'm goin out today!...Gonna go queen street to look at cloths. Then maybe a movie. Should i scare my socks of with THE RING 2 or watch a happy happy movie? Thing is, whenever after i watch a scary movie, i'll always end up scaring my self while sleeping for the next few days. I'm a total scaredy cat. Even on the phone no one is allowed to say anything bout ghosts or wat not especially if i'm alone inmy room. I'll just start to imagine things. I still remember, after watching THE EYE, i stood at the corner of my lift for weeks! See how paranoid i can get! Tess should be laughing by now.

Klah..gotta go and bathe!...

2005-03-29T10:42:00.001+08:00

I was called paranoid yesterday. Actually, i've always been paranoid. Paranoia just seeps through my blood. I can't help it! Anyway, this paranoia made a promise and shall aim to keep it. I shan't tell what the promise was, but I hope it would be recognised when it is fulfilled.

My holidays are in full swing. My parents actually thouht i was having a one week break last week. Sigh....remember how i was desperately hanging on to the thought that the holidays were coming while i was still in skool? Now....I NEED TO GO ON A HOLIDAY! to actually feel like i'm on a holiday! I'm bored at home! I should think that my weight would be catching up with me, the longer i sit at home. Cos all i do is eat!

I badly need a job. Really badly. Not cos i don haf anything to do, but cos i need the dough. Any lobangs anyone?

2005-03-26T19:14:00.000+08:00

Am I such a terrible company that someone needs to listen to music just to be able to bear sitting at the same table with me?
Am I so hard to understand?
Chivalry has been lost with time it seems.
Comfort condones rudeness?

2005-03-25T00:00:00.000+08:00

De first pic of de day...my dad n me. We went to sentosa last sunday with my aunt and uncle, grandma, cousin, my younger bro and my big bro and his wife...just doin a bit of sight seeing. We didn't do much....but i had a great day cos i spent it with my wonderful family.

courtesy of sis ella

2005-03-24T23:58:00.001+08:00

we were looking for fish!..hahaha

courtesy of sis ella

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my sis in law n moi

courtesy of sis ella

2005-03-24T23:57:00.001+08:00

i like to menyelit...dats my aunt and grandmama

courtesy of sis ella

2005-03-24T23:57:00.000+08:00

hey kitty kitty

courtesy of sis ella

2005-03-24T23:56:00.001+08:00

pssss pssss

courtesy of sis ella

2005-03-24T23:56:00.000+08:00

my new coat!

courtesy of sis ella

2005-03-24T23:55:00.000+08:00

we went to the caltex tower n i jumped at the chance to take a pic with this python. I looorrvvveee snakes!...and iguanas and frogs...not my first time with these amphibians!so cuuutteee!my dad didn't bat an eye cos i've been takin pictures with these animals since young.he'll be more afraid if i wanted to ride an elephant!

courtesy of sis ella

2005-03-24T23:53:00.000+08:00

pose pose lah sikit kan

courtesy of sis ella

2005-03-24T23:52:00.000+08:00

she didn't know i was in de pic too!..haha!

courtesy of sis ella

2005-03-24T23:51:00.001+08:00

lek lek wif my aunt n grandma..PEACE!

courtesy of sis ella

2005-03-24T23:51:00.000+08:00

lek lek

courtesy of sis ella

2005-03-24T23:50:00.000+08:00

the place had one of the best satays!...slurp!!

courtesy of sis ella

2005-03-24T23:49:00.000+08:00

We then ate at the old railway station..my dad and i...

courtesy of sis ella

2005-03-18T16:56:00.000+08:00

Now i'm gonna show you guys what i have been doin for the past few weeks for my final projects. This illustration is the one i'm most happy with. The theme was Liberty, thus the body language.All done by hand mind you. This is casual wear.

2005-03-18T16:45:00.001+08:00

Evening wear.

2005-03-18T16:45:00.000+08:00

This is career wear.

2005-03-18T16:42:00.000+08:00

This is for color class. Had to make 4 of these plus paperplanes.This is just one of the color combinations.

2005-03-18T16:41:00.000+08:00

The 4 cushions i had to design and print and make!..The white ones are on satin.